my goal for this yearis to stop timefrom managing meit will pass anywayfirst, my smartwatch brokeand the effort to fix it, againwas just not worth the timeso i escaped, after yearsmy data-driven lifestylei stopped counting stepslost track of my phoneand of course, the timesecond, the WiFi-connected smart ovenshedding light on timewas replaced with a relicthatContinue reading “time management”
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part 1: potatoes
i met my very firstlove at first sightat a potato festivalin rural Estoniai might have been 12if you’re reading this, Tõnisthat’s all i rememberHi, I’m Benedikteand this is the beginningof everything that came after youi can’t tell you muchabout what was my childhoodi was too busy overregulatingbut my broken lovelifestarted at around 14and it literallyContinue reading “part 1: potatoes”
dusty contemplations
aren’t we actually to blamefor our most immortal enemydustbeing an issuein the first placewe, humans, as a speciescollectively decidedto inhabit the indoorshave you ever seen dustin the forest, by the sea?i don’t recallor maybe as revengeit wiped my memoryas i wiped it off the windowsillwe trapped ourselvesbetween these four wallswith the same layoutthe same programContinue reading “dusty contemplations”
push to main
oh no, she has leftthe country againtoo many people have saidthat it’s my rightto act according to my own needsand Portugal is always the answerwhatever the questionas of latearound 27.5 yearsi’ve been branching offsomeone else’s master mainnot saying i’m a slavebut my local branch’s originwas set to whoever was upstreamone step aheadwithout questioning the directionandContinue reading “push to main”
spring breeze
feeling like my spaceis decreasing once morewithout consideringi haven’t brought myself outsidei could hold a dance classon my balcony if onlyit was 15 degrees warmeryet the only ray of springthat has touched my faceis the reading-mode yellowmaking me forgetto see all the beautyC could never show mebut my vacation startedit’s illegal to work next weekIContinue reading “spring breeze”
her heart += 3 sizes
hello from a better placethe sleepless nights are overbecause i accelerated too hardand then broke the breakthat’s not sustainable sowe’re not doing that anymoreno i did not forget about youi changed that passwordon day four of my tenureat a job i prayed to findsince the day i left Estoniai am very happy thereand it showsevenContinue reading “her heart += 3 sizes”
an Ode to Salomon
the 24th day of October 2025was the end of an erafor a pair of shoes with a storyfrom ice cold to melting hotand everything in-between my beloved X Ultra 3 Mid bootswere bought in June 2021for 250€ in Reykjavik, Icelandwith the limited savings i hadfrom volunteering with an incomeof 200€ per month for the pastContinue reading “an Ode to Salomon”
your local crispie
it took me a month to get a timefor a phone call with local helpexplaining once againwhy and how i ended up herethis time i felt heardcrying on live telephonyand signed up for the waiting listof a lot of people who need the helpthe up and then fighting the windmillit’s welfare, not wellfarewho think myContinue reading “your local crispie”
brain dial
why do you pick up your phonethe second your friend does next to you?you gave up on meso I shall toodistract from the conversation we hadpouring my heart outtook more than a minute put it on the tablescreen down – a sign of respectwhy is it out at all?will your children call?or are they askingContinue reading “brain dial”
i’m sure it will work out
they say while i oscillate betweenfeeling all alone in the worldand wanting to disappearin the corner of a roundtable of people that could be my familywhy don’t you ever say anything?i have nothing to sayaren’t you curious about these people?i don’t ask them how they figured themselves outthe question never occurred to methere are manyContinue reading “i’m sure it will work out”
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