love – Inspiratsiookean

flood warning

the plant in meis drowning in rainwith my doubts floating awayor collecting at the drainof a shower that won’t be minebut the windows are cleani wish i was renovatinginstead of reinventingor living out of a suitcasebut i own a bed nowand yellow rain bootsto waddle in my tearsor my irrational fearsof having to downsizeagain, toContinue reading “flood warning”

banana bread

i keep making banana breadbecause i am faced withfree bananas at workso i bring one homeand enter a cycleof forgetting it in my bagremember, then forget it againuntil they feel neglectedthere’s three of them by nowi would never waste foodbut there’s no patience or faiththat i can make something betterso i make banana breadand getContinue reading “banana bread”

part 1: potatoes

i met my very firstlove at first sightat a potato festivalin rural Estoniai might have been 12if you’re reading this, Tõnisthat’s all i rememberHi, I’m Benedikteand this is the beginningof everything that came after youi can’t tell you muchabout what was my childhoodi was too busy overregulatingbut my broken lovelifestarted at around 14and it literallyContinue reading “part 1: potatoes”

Times New Romance

i spent one week in ‘stoniabesides overeating alsorelearning the basicsof fixing what’s brokenand knitting anewi made a sock, just onewith a very special missionI’m looking for my Cinderelonkeep up with the times, folks!I’ve given him enough timeI’m taking mattersonto my own feetit’s one huge sockand there are two conditionsone – it has to fitlike aContinue reading “Times New Romance”

the twenties

i’m on a quest to find meaningsome say it will reveal itselfothers hit me with theyou’re a woman in your 20s? late ones?maybe try getting a childit’s the most meaningful thingyou could ever do in your lifeapparently that’s what late stands forperhaps it is truebut i won’t take it from a manto make him feelContinue reading “the twenties”

brain dial

why do you pick up your phonethe second your friend does next to you?you gave up on meso I shall toodistract from the conversation we hadpouring my heart outtook more than a minute put it on the tablescreen down – a sign of respectwhy is it out at all?will your children call?or are they askingContinue reading “brain dial”

prison break

this year i’m turning 5my life started when the pandemic shut everyone else’s downhappy birthday?we were forced to stay insidenever go out, never meet upbut i’d been locked up for the past 22 yearsso i had to plan my escapesome say that you reinvent yourself every 12 yearsget a cold shower, break habits, cut tiesbutContinue reading “prison break”