Author Archives: b3nedikte

time management

my goal for this yearis to stop timefrom managing meit will pass anywayfirst, my smartwatch brokeand the effort to fix it, againwas just not worth the timeso i escaped, after yearsmy data-driven lifestylei stopped counting stepslost track of my phoneand of course, the timesecond, the WiFi-connected smart ovenshedding light on timewas replaced with a relicthatContinue reading “time management”

part 1: potatoes

i met my very firstlove at first sightat a potato festivalin rural Estoniai might have been 12if you’re reading this, Tõnisthat’s all i rememberHi, I’m Benedikteand this is the beginningof everything that came after youi can’t tell you muchabout what was my childhoodi was too busy overregulatingbut my broken lovelifestarted at around 14and it literallyContinue reading “part 1: potatoes”

dusty contemplations

aren’t we actually to blamefor our most immortal enemydustbeing an issuein the first placewe, humans, as a speciescollectively decidedto inhabit the indoorshave you ever seen dustin the forest, by the sea?i don’t recallor maybe as revengeit wiped my memoryas i wiped it off the windowsillwe trapped ourselvesbetween these four wallswith the same layoutthe same programContinue reading “dusty contemplations”

way of the spring onion

day 4 of my outingfinally someone noticedme working in the shadowsattracting trouble in the lightthat is bugsin the code and on the ceilingtoday i decidedi will see the worldin my sandalsa kilometres long levadatook us far from our groupreplanting regional bananashopping over waterfallsi discovered my fear of heightswalking exposure therapyby a 500m high clifffor longerContinue reading “way of the spring onion”

life with a side of work

what an odd experienceto meet a handful of peoplefor one weekone of them fortwo and a half dayshike together for 4 hoursand then possibly never meet againin this lifetimei already forgoti’ve experienced this beforeit’s been 4 yearsi remember where they came fromsome of their namesless of their jobsbut none of their dreamswe become friendscolleagues andContinue reading “life with a side of work”

push to main

oh no, she has leftthe country againtoo many people have saidthat it’s my rightto act according to my own needsand Portugal is always the answerwhatever the questionas of latearound 27.5 yearsi’ve been branching offsomeone else’s master mainnot saying i’m a slavebut my local branch’s originwas set to whoever was upstreamone step aheadwithout questioning the directionandContinue reading “push to main”

spring breeze

feeling like my spaceis decreasing once morewithout consideringi haven’t brought myself outsidei could hold a dance classon my balcony if onlyit was 15 degrees warmeryet the only ray of springthat has touched my faceis the reading-mode yellowmaking me forgetto see all the beautyC could never show mebut my vacation startedit’s illegal to work next weekIContinue reading “spring breeze”

three

my grandmother askedlast autumnit’ll be a year soon, right?where does the dust come fromand where does time go?or money,which let’s be honestis why I came hereshamelessly scraping it togetherit’s time to take stockand analyse whymy bank account is empty,but my heart is endlessly fullin the breeze of the approaching Mother Tongue DayI practise my mother’sContinue reading “three”

kolm

mu vanaema küsiseelmine sügisvarsti saab aasta täis, eks?kust tuleb tolmja kuhu kaob aeg?või raha,mida olgem ausadtulingi ju siiaalatult kokku kraapimaon aeg teha kokkuvõtteidja analüüsida, miksmu pangakonto on tühi,aga süda on ääretult täissaabuva Emakeelepäeva tuulesharjutan oma ema keeltja välistan korrakskõik need sisserändajadkellega samastun enimkolme aasta jooksulolen kartnud olla üksiaga hoidnud omaenda kätt kui lennuk kodulinna maandumisrajaligaContinue reading “kolm”