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handcuffs unchained

remember when we used to dream?of living at the edge of the Westfjordsdragging the data cable over mountainsand living my best remote daysit’s never about being all aloneone wouldn’t survive thattrust me, I’ve practiced in the cities it’s about community building the life you want to have without trying to squeeze yourself into the boxContinue reading “handcuffs unchained”

enough

I love you at the bottomof the hole you made yourselfthey pushed you downbut you kept digging onnow it’s dark and coldand all your hope is gone the light is on the other sideyou’d see it if you’d turn aroundyou’re knocking too hardon a door where no one caresat a house you never fitin aContinue reading “enough”

your local crispie

it took me a month to get a timefor a phone call with local helpexplaining once againwhy and how i ended up herethis time i felt heardcrying on live telephonyand signed up for the waiting listof a lot of people who need the helpthe up and then fighting the windmillit’s welfare, not wellfarewho think myContinue reading “your local crispie”

brain dial

why do you pick up your phonethe second your friend does next to you?you gave up on meso I shall toodistract from the conversation we hadpouring my heart outtook more than a minute put it on the tablescreen down – a sign of respectwhy is it out at all?will your children call?or are they askingContinue reading “brain dial”

i’m sure it will work out

they say while i oscillate betweenfeeling all alone in the worldand wanting to disappearin the corner of a roundtable of people that could be my familywhy don’t you ever say anything?i have nothing to sayaren’t you curious about these people?i don’t ask them how they figured themselves outthe question never occurred to methere are manyContinue reading “i’m sure it will work out”

selling thyme

looking for a job in anythingonline, on-site, TrondheimI offer 5 years of experience in softwareembedded C, microcontrollers, irrelevantready to try something differentless lonely, more creative, a challengebut allowing me to keep my sanitymorally sound, realistic goals, good causehelping me to help our Mother Earthanimals safe, forests cold, oceans cleanguiding people to make better decisionsstay offline,Continue reading “selling thyme”

prison break

this year i’m turning 5my life started when the pandemic shut everyone else’s downhappy birthday?we were forced to stay insidenever go out, never meet upbut i’d been locked up for the past 22 yearsso i had to plan my escapesome say that you reinvent yourself every 12 yearsget a cold shower, break habits, cut tiesbutContinue reading “prison break”

well-done

imagine not even wanting to travel is this the burnout I’m walking into where the steak of life is overcooked • at work they say: well done! blind to the fact not even the bare minimum made it to the board of results my therapist tells me to stop tell the manager that I’m soContinue reading “well-done”

pole pole officially mad

this one is not next to the Atlantic but hear me out, folks because from now on all of these will be written next to it • I’ve been training for a year to do this one crazy thing don’t even try, you can’t guess it but after walking 300km in Portugal last year IContinue reading “pole pole officially mad”

do you know how much this cost in Norway?

I honestly did not know because the salary I had was so low but it did not matter the company I worked for helped me get all warm and cozy in my apartment on top of the hill with the ocean view that 50% of my rent must be for • I unresided Estonia inContinue reading “do you know how much this cost in Norway?”