wrapped

it's a wrap! said spotify
and then presented us
with the most predictable gift
from an internet stalker

my top genre was Dark Pop
with top artist Lilyisthatyou
you've never heard of her
neither had i
but i made an adult friend
my listening age was 19
guess who's taking back
her early twenties
with the help(?) of an algorithm

she accompanied me through
my most prolonged
depressive episode yet
made sure i marinated in it
her music sounds empowering but
singing A-N-X-I-E-T-Y and HARD TO LOVE
at the top of my lungs
for months in a row
can't possibly be good for anyone

4895 minutes of her music
made me her 766th global fan
but i saved myself by
screaming even louder to
any RAYE song in my queue
her concert in Dublin
made me feel worse but heard
at the end of my tunnel vision
and gave me a tangible measurement
of the state of my depression
I don't cry to Ice Cream Man.
anymore

The only thing which darkness
cannot coexist is the light