one eternity later

it sure has Bene a while

since I will stay in Estonia

for this long a time

but not to be worry

I won’t stay for more

than three months in a row

for who knows how long

•

I stayed in Iceland

for two months

until I couldn’t anymore

I had bought the ticket

back home for after New Year’s

to visit my family

for the holidays

that are too expensive to travel

but grabbed the first shot

of coming to Estonia

at the beginning of December

after feeling drawn

to the literal bottom

of my existence

after being SO ready

to change apartments

but cancelling everything

because I should not

bring others down with me

•

so I appeared behind

my loved ones’ doors

on a Sunday at 7 AM

and stayed for Christmas

returned to Iceland

for the battlefield

that is Reykjavik

on New Year’s Eve

travelled around for two weeks

with the luckiest weather

before Iceland was almost

swept away a week later

•

I don’t regret moving

my one suitcase

to the land of ice and fire

a year ago

four months ago

or the next time

(I won’t be long)

I had a fantastic time

made friends for life

saw that my dream place

is not a joke

but next to the Atlantic Ocean

mountains next to the sea

are called volcanoes

and they’re nice and warm

I learned more about myself

in the last month there

than I ever did before

and I know now

that I need to convert the habit

of walking for miles

from Icelandic standards

to anywhere else

I decide to go

maybe the weather

is just too good here

•

now, being back in Estonia

citing the classics

I ain’t happier

but I’m way less sad

and in the process of

packing my bag

for the next adventure ahead

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